Today I have made one of the biggest decisions of my life but I'm not ready to disclose too much about it yet. I'm relieved that I finally decided to follow through with it though. Part of my hesitation is the fact that I'm bearing my soul to the world via the internet and I'm not exactly sure how I should divulge in the beginning of my blogging experience.
I've been through so much this past year since relocating to Phoenix, AZ from Raleigh, NC and I'm finally beginning to feel some relief...both literally and figuratively. I've been told for most of my adult life that I'm a strong woman and that's what people seem to admire about me. Through my eyes, however, what one considers strength I consider survival. I do whatever I need to do (within reason, of course) to take care of myself and my family. I guess I'm a strong woman, but to me I'm more determined than anything to have the kind of life I've dreamed of and to provide a better quality of life for my children.
I've always been pretty positive...an optimist and I love that because that's what really works for me. I've tried being negative and that just takes too much work! Negative people seem to flock to other negative people and my experience was that I just got tired of hearing everybody (including me) piss and moan all the time about their issues. I decided to do something about my situation and change my outlook and here I am. Please don't get me wrong and don't get it twisted...I never said that it was a cake walk or that my life had not been without challenge, but again, my determination pushes me seemingly where I need to be.
I promise I'll expound on my great leap in the near future, but for now, just know that it's awfully exciting in my world right now...and finally I'm getting a break and a fresh start!
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