My previous blog post was a post of the frustration that I often experience when the people in my life are so consumed by all the negativity in their lives that it eventually begins to become painfully obvious to me that they are NOT happy. I can't STAND negativity and often become agitated by those who are seemingly always pessimistic. "Why do I care?", was the question posed within the blog. I found my answer the very next day.
I set out on my quest to find a church home, and my search ended at Raleigh International Church. From the moment I walked through the doors I knew my life would not be the same again. The teens were the greeters and they were so happy and friendly to be in the House of the Lord that it made me happy to be there too! Warm smiles and bright eyes welcomed me as I made my way into the sanctuary to participate in the praise and worship. As I was lead to my seat by the usher, the members of the church were smiling and greeting me as soon as I made eye contact with them. At my seat, I immediately joined in the praise and worship because I felt so comfortable there. I raised my hands and sang, "My life is not my own, to you I belong. I give myself to You." As I sang the words of this song I experience a RHEMA moment...that moment when God speaks loud and clear to you. There's no denying His voice or His presence. Pastor Thornton says, "Maximize the rhema moments. Your faith becomes increased in these rhema moments."
Various members of the church began to pray and speak in tongues, and one man spoke in French. I don't speak any French, for Spanish is my love, however I understood EVERY word he uttered under the power of the Holy Spirit. It was amazing! We all got on our knees and began to pray and weep before God as His Word was prophesied DURING worship. As I wept and prayed, I could literally feel the Lord's arms around me as I cried on His shoulder...almost like I had my head against His chest and was telling Him all that concerned me. There was such an indescribable comfort and peace unlike anything I had ever experienced in my life. It was at that moment, as the praise team sang, "We will never know how much it cost to see our sins upon a cross..." that I realized and finally understood that my life is truly not my own. My very existence is ONLY due to the fact that Jesus Christ died on the cross for me. What an amazing epiphany!
I then heard testimonies of how God moved in various members lives and each testimony brought me to tears. The pastor then approaches the pulpit to inform me that my "barrenness is only for a season". As he proceeded with the lesson, I could feel deep within the wellspring of my belly the desires of my heart coming into fruition. I could see my ideas taking shape and became so excited that I could hardly stand it. For the first time in a long time, I felt like I had truly come home.
As a first time visitor, I was announced and welcomed with tons of hugs and hand shakes. I jumped at the opportunity to begin the process to become a member of the church, and immediately began thinking about how I could be a blessing to the church as well. I'm ready for the awesome things that are coming my way and delight in the fact that my season of barrenness is over. I make a declaration today to do all I can do to let God have His way in my life. Nothing can stop me...
Barrenness for a season doesn't mean forever. You are fruitful. Don't let the fears and failures of the past determine your future because sometimes postponements are a part of God's plan. Always remember and be confident in this very thing; that He that has begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ (Philippians 1:6) God is good and wants you to have the desires of your heart. I'm learning that you just have to trust Him.
Have a fabulous day today and stay inspired.
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