I'm a pretty strong willed person. I don't think that there's anything that I can't do and once my sights are locked on a goal, I won't stop until I reach or achieve that goal. This works very well for me in the natural, however, not so much with the Lord.
With the Lord I have to be submissive and obedient. I have to trust in Him and not myself and actually believe that someone other that me has my best interest at heart. I have to wait on the Lord and be encouraged that even though He may not come when I want Him, He's always on time. I have to reposition myself from the one in the driver's seat to the one being driven.
This is a lot easier said than done and I know that people say it all the time..."God is faithful. He's always on time". It took me a while to truly understand God's timing because for a while I thought that I was the butt of God's jokes. It wasn't until I realized that a lot of the decisions I was making was due to a lack of faith or impatience, and even lack of clarity of thought. I've had to determine what is truly important to me and what I'm trying to accomplish. When it's all said and done, I just want to be the woman that God created and purposed me to be.
I've learned that I've blocked my own blessings and I haven't allowed the Lord to move in my life the way I say I want Him to. I can't do things my way because, as my track record has proven, I don't know what I'm doing. My disobedience has been my downfall on more than one occasion. Finally, FINALLY, I'm ready to be elevated to a more substantial relationship with my Father. I guess I'm just tired of trying to do things my way and always getting basically the same result, even though it may be different situations or scenarios.
I've come to the realization that I need the PRESENCE of the Lord...daily, all the time. I need to commune with Him, allowing His presence to guide me. I don't have a problem with being quiet or listening. My problem has always being in control. Life has taught me that if I want something done and done right, I have to do it myself. Jesus is teaching me that if I wait on the Lord I will have renewed strength. I will mount up on wings like an eagle that soars. I will run and not be weary, walk and never faint...IF I wait on the Lord.
So now, the diligence that He has infused in me will be used to seek His PRESENCE. I've discovered that I can't live without it. My heart's desire is to be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season. Who's leaf shall not wither, and whatsoever I doeth (I made the scripture personal to me) shall prosper. (Psalm 1:3 KJV)
Lord Jesus, show me in Your Word how to submit to Your Will and Your Way. Break my will so that Your Will be made manifest in my life. Help me to be Christ-like and obedient, humble and thankful. Bless the reader and meet them where they are, Father. You are the Author and Finisher of our faith. You are holy and awesome. Hallellujah!
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