I STILL Have Faith in Love

I've been confused by recent events in my love life, but I'm grateful for the experiences.  I've been dating a wonderful man, who evidently has a lot going on.  We talk all the time, he sends me romantic text messages, he sends me songs indicating his affection for me...just romantic.  And then it happened...

What happened?  I have no idea!!  Usually, I send him a good morning text every morning and he responds with words of affection and bliss.  The same thing happens at night...I send him a good night text, and he sends me wishes of sweet dreams and beautiful rest.  Everything was lovely on Tuesday morning.  Wednesday he appeared to be very short with me via text.  I say, "Good morning Superman"!  He says, "good morning".  No term of dearment, no sending you candy coated kisses, nothing.  Please understand that we've been doing this every morning and night for the past 4.3 months.  Thursday I say, "good morning Honey"!  He says, "good morning".  I ask if he's okay and he says that he's fine and asks me how I am.  I tell him that I'm fabulous, that I miss him, and asked him if he was mad at me.  His response, "yep".  Huh?  I ask why and he said that we'll talk about it later.  That was on Thursday morning.

We usually talk every day during his lunch when he's working, but I didn't call him this time because he said that he was mad at me, and I know how I am when I'm mad.  I need my space until I'm ready to talk, but I don't have a long cool down period.  I tried to be understanding and not call him, plus I haven't done anything for him to be mad at me.  I know in my heart that I haven't done anything...seriously. 

I decided this morning to send him a text and give him a call indicating that I have no clue about what's going on and why he's mad at me, but if his lack of communication with me is his intended message, then I got it loud and clear.  If not, then I would appreciate a call back.  What's funny is that I really want things to work out with us, but I know that I deserve better than this.  There's too much to do for me to be going through any unnecessary emotional drama.  I deserve the best that life has to offer, and I deserve to be loved by someone who is able to articulate his thoughts, even though it may be tough.  We can work through anything if we just continue to communicate with each other.

I still have faith in love and believe that my love is out there somewhere waiting for me.  Part of me wants it to be with him though.  I care about him a lot, but I care about myself just as much.  I love being in a relationship, but I love being single too.  I'm okay either way.  I just want to be happy.