They Don't Know About This Here...

I love my friends so much.  We've been friends for years and years and have shared so much with each other.  We've been each other's support and encouragement.  We've been present at the births of each other's children.  They are my girls...however...

I'm learning that I'm in a different place right now.  I'm getting married and have a special bond with my husband to be that no one can come between...not even my friends.  I know that they have the best of intentions and that they love me and don't want to see me hurt.  I know that a lot of the advice I receive from them is motivated by their experiences in previous or current relationships.  My Honey told me something that I hold on to every day...

He said, "this is me and you...just us".  That statement made me think about this song by Jon B.  I have got to get my friends out of my head and trust my man with my heart.  I can't expect him to do the time for the crimes that have been committed by others in my life.  They all moved out of the way for him. 

No one knows about what I'm experiencing with my man but me and him.  I'm learning that my relationship with mi Lechelito is sacred and I cherish every moment, even the uncomfortable ones.  I don't think it's a good idea to share issues that occur within my relationship with my friends.  I know that their intentions are good, but my Honey is not any of their exes either.  I'm not hateful or bitter about any of my past relationships, nor do I blame any of my exes for my decisions or current condition.  I had to learn about myself and what it is that I was willing to tolerate.  I had to decide what it is that I felt like I deserve in a relationship and how I want to be treated. 

I got everything that I want and I'm being treated the way I feel like I deserve to be treated by a man who loves me more than I could ever fathom...and it feels beautiful.  I love you Honey...