I've made some pretty drastic choices over the last week and I'm not turning back from it! I swear, if I wasn't so damn determined and stubborn I'd be dead by now. I've gotten mad at myself, almost destroyed myself, encouraged myself...and now I'm working on myself and getting back to the Lennis I know and love.
Things haven't been so great for me and I've been greatly affected by the distractions in my life instead of using those distractions as motivation to catapult me towards my goals and dreams. I'm ready to face my challenges head on and have the mentality and mental stability to conquer anything that comes my way. I had almost forgotten how much I love me...I just adore me! I'm worth so much more than I've been willing to accept from others and have accepted from others. I am worthy so much more than what's been given to me thus far and I'm fighting til my last breath to get what I want and feel I deserve.
Change is such a beautiful thing because even the most subtle change can make everything seem so much better and so drastically different than before. I've made some physical changes...some I like and some I definitely don't like. The beauty is that I can always changes what I don't like and I've decided to do that starting today. I'm improving on one change I've made and I love the result. I feel more free now than I've ever felt in my life.
Embrace change. You will be so much better for it and will experience such growth because you've learned to become adaptable.
Saturday, January 30, 2010
Sunday, January 17, 2010
A Heart for Haiti
On Tuesday January 12, 2010, a 7.0 earthquake hit Haiti and devastated an already devastated country. Hundreds of buildings collapsed and left hundreds of thousands of people homeless. The death toll is still unknown and people are STILL be rescued alive today. Rescued citizens of Haiti are hungry and in desperate need of medical supplies, food, water, and clothing. My heart breaks for the people of Haiti, but I have hope for them too.
What's so ironic about this whole situation is the fact that Haiti is THE poorest country in the western hemisphere and has needed help for decades. People are literally making mud pies to eat due to the lack of food. The country is in such a desperate state and has needed global support for a long time, but now that a major earthquake has hit the world wants to respond. It frustrates me that it takes a disaster for people to come together, but my heart is happy too...because FINALLY the world is coming together to help Haiti. Millions of dollars have been raised to assist in the rescue efforts, delivery of food and medical supplies, and more money is pouring in from sources and resources all over the world. Cell phone companies are encouraging customers to text a donation to be billed to the next month's phone bill. American Airlines is flying medical staff to Haiti for free. People are donating baby items, toiletries, and clothing and dropping them off at participating churches to be personally delivered to the people of Haiti.
I'm proud to say that I'm also doing my part. I've created a fundraiser for my students to participate in and represent the high school for which I work. It's a small step towards encouraging global citizenship for my students and it'll also encourage community involvement. I'm very excited and passionate about what I'm doing and I don't want this to fade. Finally the world is standing up in global support for Haiti and I want to keep the support flowing.
Continued aid is on the way, Haiti...
What's so ironic about this whole situation is the fact that Haiti is THE poorest country in the western hemisphere and has needed help for decades. People are literally making mud pies to eat due to the lack of food. The country is in such a desperate state and has needed global support for a long time, but now that a major earthquake has hit the world wants to respond. It frustrates me that it takes a disaster for people to come together, but my heart is happy too...because FINALLY the world is coming together to help Haiti. Millions of dollars have been raised to assist in the rescue efforts, delivery of food and medical supplies, and more money is pouring in from sources and resources all over the world. Cell phone companies are encouraging customers to text a donation to be billed to the next month's phone bill. American Airlines is flying medical staff to Haiti for free. People are donating baby items, toiletries, and clothing and dropping them off at participating churches to be personally delivered to the people of Haiti.
I'm proud to say that I'm also doing my part. I've created a fundraiser for my students to participate in and represent the high school for which I work. It's a small step towards encouraging global citizenship for my students and it'll also encourage community involvement. I'm very excited and passionate about what I'm doing and I don't want this to fade. Finally the world is standing up in global support for Haiti and I want to keep the support flowing.
Continued aid is on the way, Haiti...
Commit to Recommit
It is January 17, 2010 and my year has already gotten of to a rocky start. I'm not going to waste my time venting or whining about the woes of my life, but I will say that part of my issues have been the fact that I'm rather undisciplined when it comes to so many things. I want to get things done, but I get so easily overwhelmed that I just shut down.
So today I'm making a commitment to myself and to you. I'm committing to recommit to my goals and desires. I want to write EVERY day. I want to work out at least 3 days a week. I want to have a side hustle. I've decided that my side hustles are to tutor Spanish and to complete and publish my first book this year.
I think that part of what overwhelms me is the fact that my goals have other issues that affect the completion or maintenance of said goal. For instance, I want to work out at least 3 days a week, however, I've got to have healthy items in my cabinets to help support that workout goal. Eating healthy is expensive and I'm struggling to keep the basics in the house right now, let alone more fruits and veggies on a regular basis. That fact wears on me emotionally, which leads me to emotionally eat junk food. It's seems like a mad cycle. I get so disgusted and overwhelmed by what I need that I just shut down and don't do anything. How do I stop it?
The other goals are fairly simple. I do love to write and posting on my blog really helps me clear my head and say what's really going on in my life and what truly affects me. I really do enjoy blogging and will include these blogs in my book, which should be out by the end of the year.
I am committed to my re-commitment to myself. I'm committing to being selfish and getting thing done for me...and I'm proud of that. Today I've taken a small step and completed one goal...I blogged.
Now I get to scratch that goal off my To Do List today...
So today I'm making a commitment to myself and to you. I'm committing to recommit to my goals and desires. I want to write EVERY day. I want to work out at least 3 days a week. I want to have a side hustle. I've decided that my side hustles are to tutor Spanish and to complete and publish my first book this year.
I think that part of what overwhelms me is the fact that my goals have other issues that affect the completion or maintenance of said goal. For instance, I want to work out at least 3 days a week, however, I've got to have healthy items in my cabinets to help support that workout goal. Eating healthy is expensive and I'm struggling to keep the basics in the house right now, let alone more fruits and veggies on a regular basis. That fact wears on me emotionally, which leads me to emotionally eat junk food. It's seems like a mad cycle. I get so disgusted and overwhelmed by what I need that I just shut down and don't do anything. How do I stop it?
The other goals are fairly simple. I do love to write and posting on my blog really helps me clear my head and say what's really going on in my life and what truly affects me. I really do enjoy blogging and will include these blogs in my book, which should be out by the end of the year.
I am committed to my re-commitment to myself. I'm committing to being selfish and getting thing done for me...and I'm proud of that. Today I've taken a small step and completed one goal...I blogged.
Now I get to scratch that goal off my To Do List today...
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Celebrate EACH New Day...
I had the opportunity to talk to one of my dearest friends via Yahoo IM yesterday and was able to tell her how much I love her. She told me how she had seen a post on Facebook about how we celebrate the New Year each year, even though we're given new mercies every day. People make resolutions every year that, statistically speaking, peter out around February 1st. We determine that we're gonna get into shape, change our attitudes, stop smoking, get new jobs...all sorts of stuff; however, most of us fail to realize that each day that we're allowed to wake up is an new opportunity to resolve to do all the things that we put off until the first of the incoming new year.
Personally, I gave up New Year's resolutions a very long time ago because I didn't see the point of waiting until the new year to do something that could be done with the dawning of a new day. Seemingly, the new year is seen as a new beginning because the world procrastinates and uses their excuses as crutches to continue the undesired behavior. I love when people say that tomorrow isn't promised, not only because it's true, but because it really puts our lives into perspective when faced with our own mortality.
My friend says that if we treat each DAY with the same zeal and excitement as we do when the new year comes, then instead of resolutions unmet there would be more goals met, dreams realized, and potentials reached. That is such a profound statement to me. I guess it's because I have a vivid imagination, so I can see myself so excited about the new day and living that day to the fullest. I would have more of my book written, my apartment cleaned, and my checkbook organized. With each new day comes new goals and new things to do. Imagine the possibilities if we approached each new day with zeal and excitement. What would you be able to accomplish in 24 hours?
One of the things that I can't stand to hear people say is that there just aren't enough hours in the day, but what if each day was as if it were the New Year? Dr. Wayne Dyer says that when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at begin to change. I want to encourage you (and me) to see each new day as New Year's day and live up to your potential. Live more, love more, and laugh til you cry. It's healthier for you and you'll be a whole lot happier in the long run...PLUS you get to party EVERY day! So Happy New DAY! Celebrate!
Personally, I gave up New Year's resolutions a very long time ago because I didn't see the point of waiting until the new year to do something that could be done with the dawning of a new day. Seemingly, the new year is seen as a new beginning because the world procrastinates and uses their excuses as crutches to continue the undesired behavior. I love when people say that tomorrow isn't promised, not only because it's true, but because it really puts our lives into perspective when faced with our own mortality.
My friend says that if we treat each DAY with the same zeal and excitement as we do when the new year comes, then instead of resolutions unmet there would be more goals met, dreams realized, and potentials reached. That is such a profound statement to me. I guess it's because I have a vivid imagination, so I can see myself so excited about the new day and living that day to the fullest. I would have more of my book written, my apartment cleaned, and my checkbook organized. With each new day comes new goals and new things to do. Imagine the possibilities if we approached each new day with zeal and excitement. What would you be able to accomplish in 24 hours?
One of the things that I can't stand to hear people say is that there just aren't enough hours in the day, but what if each day was as if it were the New Year? Dr. Wayne Dyer says that when you change the way you look at things, the things you look at begin to change. I want to encourage you (and me) to see each new day as New Year's day and live up to your potential. Live more, love more, and laugh til you cry. It's healthier for you and you'll be a whole lot happier in the long run...PLUS you get to party EVERY day! So Happy New DAY! Celebrate!
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